I feel like I’ve always lived in this cycle.
Starting fresh. Meet new groups. Meet a new crush. Find my center where I can balance everything for a small duration.
Then the tipping point. Crushes are crushed. My heart and back is stabbed. I keep quiet and smile. Depression and my thoughts hit again and again.
Hitting rock bottom. Rising again. Finding inspiration. Swallowing of pride. Dating my inner darkness. And finding out what is left in life and how to pursue everything from here.
I hate it. It never ends and I feel like it will take time to change and flow from this. But for now:
Fresh, Regress, Depress, and Progress.
My life cycle.
Maybe failure is a natural talent of mine….
We do nothing without incentives, regardless if it is materialistic, realistic, or pleasurable.
However, in these few weeks I’ve learned that people can act out of kindness, emotion, or probable regret.
To this day, I find myself on auto-self-correction for the mistakes and achievements I have and have yet to lay waste and profit for.
We live in this world where profit became the same and probably much more than
Human kindness and human thought.