Things that help to surpass one’s limits:
Even if I want to fall, I will always stay standing.
I was never the type to open up.
If life lets me down
If people let me down
And most importantly,
If I let myself down,
To be honest, I’m used to it.
Always playing second best, having reaching my limits time after time. Then when it comes to the moment where some potentially it could have happened, I am stuck dead and frozen and people lose trust and interest.
In the end, I honestly have a thousand year war of my two inner sides of WTF and TBH fighting within the two seconds these moments occurs.
Applying to school
Applying to life
Applying to love and people and family
It sucks to know that the struggles you go through cannot be visually seen. That through social norms you must keep things hidden and leave it be. So my bad for the seriousness or sterness in my face or voice.
Heck I screwed myself up too many times now, these next and current times are no different. Tell me to change and try something new, well shit I tried.
My only solution: Having a strong stance and prepare for the next wave. Even if I am near death and basically broken.